WHAT IS YOUR INTENTION? 

Rev.Marilyn L. Redmond, BA, ABH, IBRT

 Most of my life I was told what to do by my parents, then bymy husband, and after that by my principal where I taught school. Neverrealizing I could have my own ideas and wishes, I was very obedient in adysfunctional family environment for many years. My intention was not to endurethe consequences of not following orders. I was distraught and troubled aboutlife and my part in it. In this setting I was not a happy person, as I was notthe real me.

Through a major traumatic life-threatening situation, Iprayed for help. This led me to finding a spiritual path where I could claim mylife and my own aspirations. Gradually, I reclaimed my life. My book,"Paradigm Busters" at Amazon has a version of my story and how Ireleased the barriers that stopped my life from the opportunities andinheritance that were there for me.

 I first learned that fear stops the sunlight of thespirit.  Needing to release my fear for anew basis in life was scary. However, as I identified each one to let go, Ireplaced it with love and grace; my life started to change. The fears of movingforward in my life were overwhelming; however, moving onward was moreimportant. I found the power within to move out of my relationships that werenot good for me.

 Identifying anger from past harms and abuse calledresentments are continuing to this day in my life. Not allowing myself to feelall the identifying past angers and letting them go, I still had old angerintensely inside.

 I just had two car accidents in the last 4 months to get myattention and release deeper resentments. Being raised that "Nice girls donot get angry", I stuffed these feelings very well. I kept my rage insideto comply. Another saying in those times was, "Children are to be seen andnot heard". Over the years, my temper stayed buried.

 My mother guilted me to do her wishes, I understand today. Mychurch added to this, calling me a sinner and I caused someone to die. Becauseof the family dysfunction and added church dogma that also shamed and guiltedme, I never brought home my friends from school, as they would see how terriblemy life was.

 I was even ashamed when my mother came to the PTA meeting atschool. I acted as if I did not know her as she walked by my jump roping atrecess with the other girls. My intentions were not to be hurt or humiliatedone more time.

 Guilt and shame were the basis for my old life until I foundI did not have to be guilty or shameful. Today, I know I am a child of the universeborn in love. It is not necessary for me to act out the guilt and shame of myparents. Today, I have removed the unnecessary guilt and shame. Accepting thisnew insight has been gradual, however, just this week someone tried to shameand guilt me. I noticed it immediately and knew it was their projection ontome.  

 Old feelings keep me thinking I am unworthy, not goodenough, and less than. Knowing we are always doing the right thing at the righttime removes the guilt. I am as worthy as everyone as we all come from ourCreator. We are all created equal. I can relax and be myself and that is all right.

 Since those days, I learned how influential my consciousnesscould be. Currently, I am able to change my patterns of biology. With"pure intent" which is from the heart, I can affect my body cells. Mybody can listen to what I say.  I canstay alive longer and have better health if I am balanced. My thoughts canaffect my immune system as well. Science includes this in their subject mattercalled epigenetic.

 Now, I am able to have a new intention. It is like aspiritual command from the soul essence to the cells of my body. With equilibrium,wisdom, and the smile of knowingness, along with compassionate action, knowinghow things work, I can change my intention for health and a happy life. I amable to change the basis of my old feelings to love and forgiveness.

 This re-evaluation is helping me right now as I am recoveringfrom the air bags exploding in my car accident causing Cellulitis. Thisinformation is not a coincidence; when I need the information, it comes to me.I have the ability to create the healthy mental and emotional messages to mycells to heal my injuries from the automobile accident with the help ofantibiotics. My needs are met.

 This is proof to me that God brings me the information,answers, and awareness with the right timing. When I am aware of what tochange, the answer appears. My intention no longer needs to come from survivalin a dysfunctional background, but can move into resolving the issue with a newloving intention of health and well-being.