I AM A NEW PERSON

By Rev. Marilyn L.Redmond

In a meditation, I rise out of the universe and beyond. Ifound myself in the unlimited sunlight. From this view, I see the endlesshorizon. The feelings of abundance and prosperity fill the air and are withinme. This occurrence lasts for the morning. I know it is all there is andavailable for me. I feel the presence of All That Is— immersed in love.

Archangel Michael tells me that the path is clearing for theunhealed core issues to surface and be felt. My past vasanas are coming up andleaving as gut pains. I am reminded that Pure Love casts out all fear. My lifehad been fear based for years. This is uncomfortable but I slow down enough forthe process to happen. I am familiar that when the good comes in and theunresolved emotions leave. Having been a workaholic and over achiever, this isa challenge. I describe this process in my books at Amazon. I was told yearsago when my mental illness erupted, to say, "Yippy, skippy it isleaving". 

In addition, I am informed that I will be the one in myfamily to heal six generations of family anger. Realizing that I had beenliving in my parents' woundedness become real. These stuffed feelings were thebasis for many of my emotions and finally can leave. Now, with 40 years ofrecovery from a background of sexual abuse, domestic violence, mental illness,addictions, past lives, and medical related issues to get my attention, withmore old fears as worries, and negativity finally surface to leave

I had no feelings for years. When I was younger, I stuffedmy ordeals to survive. Identifying these past issues daily for many years at aconscious and soul basis and releasing them has brought authenticity. I hadbeen stuck at the age of an emotional three year old from seeing my motherbeaten by my father, thinking I was next. I identify the source of each theseold emotions to heal and let them go. I describe the process in "ParadigmBusters".  I am told, growing up, isnot for sissies. Growing up from my first time on earth until now has been myfull journey, to let go and let God.

Now there is space for love and grace to fill me. I see lifeas neutral and I do not need to see events as good or bad. It would take a bookto relate my spiritual journey from the Pleiades and my path of past lives tocurrently help others and raise the consciousness of the planet from myexperience and wisdom. They just are there to influence my moving into reality.

Now, I understand as my friends leave over time, that ourenergies no longer match. Attracting healthy people brings a new life filledand surrounded in love. I understand when I am filled with love, that is theamour of God, and negative energies repel. Turning on the light within bringsthe truth and reveals itself.

I release more core issues as I rise out of the universe itfeels like I have moved out of the blue print for my life challenges. Safety isthe complete relinquishment of attack. No longer defending myself through pastneglect, abandonment, wanting to die, or future worries, has given me a new setof eyes. I feel like a completely new person. I forgive, have compassion, andthank those people for providing the opportunities I needed to identify my coreissues allowing me to return home.

My eyes look back at me from my mirror in my bedroom in aself-assured and complimentary way I never saw before. Seeing me as a normalperson with confidence is new. Sensing myself as younger surprises me as I amcalm and comfortable. With this new inner experience, I approve of myselfbefore leaving to do errands.

I went to my appointment driving with a fresh, bigger, andmore rational vision of clarity feeling empowered. I like my authority. I evenjoked with the person helping me, which was a first for me and walked away feelingnormal. A kind man opened the door for me to leave as I use a cane.

Driving home, I cry listening to the very high tones of aviolin concerto on the radio. The resonance is so beautiful that I merge withthe tones. Another pointer verified my change as I enjoy the warm sun sittingon my patio. I viewed the leaves on the tall trees surrounding my home shimmerin the soft winds as the sunshines on them. Their iridescence is so gloriousthat I fill with ecstasy for the magnificence of nature and the universe. Michaeltells me that I am one with the "Source of All There Is"  as I experience the positive energy in allthings. Life is good.